One thing that I learn in Uni...

...the people here are too damn zai already.

You have the ones who are good at sports, and when I say good, they are of national standards.

You have the ones who are good at the arts, singing...acting...and when I say good, they are of national standards.

You have the ones who are good at studies, and when I say good, they are those who are capable of being on the dean list for 4 years straight, kinda thing.



And then you realised how small you are, how inadequate you are, that you are really not as good as you think you are. You get the taste of failure. But seriously...

You know that you have moved out of your comfort zone to try to achieve something. Interviews and auditions are scary, but if you don't ever take the first step, you won't achieve anything. Rejection hurts, but its a way to remind you to stay grounded.

I failed, and it sucks. Every single time after the interview/audition, when the email comes and they say...

Yea, my heart literally sinks and then I just go like ...

Yea, they say there are a lot of opportunities in SMU, but all the opportunities are snatched away by those who are good. Oh well yea, I know, who wants the bad ones right...

Oh well, I just have to work even harder, what else right? This post sounds kinda loser-ish, well yes. Its because these failures suck. It sucks, really.

爱情观念

去年大约在A水准准备期间，好友曾用我的手机写下了这么一句话……

“爱一个人为什么那么痛苦？但是，爱情也不是选择题……也不是你想放下，就一定做得到的。”

而我就这样地回复她……

“若是在爱情中走失，请看看爱情以外的事物。”

前几天，我与工作地方的一位同事（她刚好是位单亲妈妈）随便聊了一会儿。她对于未来所有爱的机遇都不抱太大希望。由她所说，她的心已关闭。


而我，心，仍然是封闭住的。




到底何时我才能拥有属于自己的春天呢？

어른아이 - Sad thing

I saw you...you in me

I saw you...you in me

It's so sad...saddest sad

It's so sad...saddest thing 

决定

所以，我已做了决定。

希望这条路能过得平平安安，走得顺顺利利。

心里虽说不抱太大期望，但说真的，还是对于新的开始感到十分兴奋。

我很欣慰，能与好友一起过这条艰辛的旅程。尽管多辛苦，只要有好友在身边，总觉得自己就是万能的了。

我希望大家都选择了自己心仪的路。

现在，我们也只能是往前看，往前走。竟然是自己做的决定，最好就不要再回头了啊。

Ketchup, catch up

For the past few days, I've been meeting up with my loved ones whom I haven't seen in a while. Forever getting that warm and fuzzy feeling whenever I chat with them. Really enjoyed my weekends :')

Met up with our dearest Tranny who was in Singapore for a short getaway from Indo. Had supper with her after our choir practice on Friday. Thank god for Pastamania which closes at like, 11pm. Yes, topics discussed includes university choices, kidnap scams in Indo, how much we missed the authentic Italian pasta etc etc and last but not least, how Tranny looked so seductive in the picture above. What a provocative pose.



Went to SMU tea session with Lijuan in the morning. Sorry, it was too early for me I swear I was still half asleep during the panel discussion. Took this picture because we were seriously falling asleep and we had to do something interesting to keep us awake.



Met up with Gina back in the West for early dinner together. This girl is so busy with school the last time we really met up and have a meal together was like, a month ago? 1 month is really long! While we were still schooling we meet up at least once a week and during the As mugging period we meet each other every single day. After dinner we went to chill at Tutti Frutti and chatted over froyo. Talked to her about 黄城 which we watched last week. I was probably a little too critical. I guess, I just cannot forget about drama...




Meanwhile, things to look forward this upcoming week!

1. 2 days work week (WEE!!!!)
2. NYJC Limelight Concert @ Esplanade on Wednesday
3. Music Matters Live

Its gonna be a good week.
 

Tired

Nights like this...while listening to k-indie mixes on 8tracks...

I feel old and tired and I guess its the time when you finally have to decide what you should do with your life. The decent grades I got for As gave me the opportunity to take up the courses of my choice in the respective universities.

All along, I've been living my life without much expectations, without any ambitions, without any goals. Then I finally came up with a few choices and submitted my university applications weeks ago. And now I have to decide on which university to enroll. Why is my life full of choices? Lol, I'm probably gonna get bashed by some people out there. But seriously...I wish I have someone to tell me what to do with my life. Oh, but then I will probably complain about how I cannot make my own decisions. What a bloody hypocrite I am.

What I want to do:

• Visit Cups N Canvas again because of the delicious Sweet Potato Latte
• Nua the whole day at the cafe (if possible)
• Every morning; to wake up naturally without the alarm clock
• Read my books
• Plan the itinerary for my free&easy trip to Seoul
• Pick up on film photography
• Continue practising on my guitar

What I really need to do:

• Decide on a university
• University
• Freshmen year
• Orientation camps
• Open houses
• Tea parties
• Uni
• Uni
• Uni
• Uni
• Probably start studying for QET (wtf)
• Uni
• Uni

Lol, fml.

New blog

Created a photography blog haha! There's only 2 posts for now but more will come!

http://ngagangwanders.wordpress.com/