Hang out with the lovely BOARs

As to why we're called BOARs is totally a coincidence. You cannot deny the randomness in this; it was all due to the Ubin getaway/cycling trip during our June holiday last year. Well you know, there're random wild boars roaming around in the island so it just happened that someone (I have no idea who) changed the name of our whatsapp group to BOAR. For some reason, we recently declared our official clique name as to that.

Then it turns out that our names actually fit this particular word. It was a bit 勉强 but, will do will do...

Benjamin Loo
Ong Pei Shi
Angie
Jun Ren

MINDBLOWN!!

Anyways, the BOARs decided to hang out last Sunday. Dear O wanted to go Queyside Isle for the longest time so we decided to gather and have dinner there.

The initial plan was to hang out only at night because I wanted to take some time in the day to do my freaking irritating, confusing, troublesome university application. Wanted to do it over at Starbucks but for some reason, I've decided change the location to this cafe which I read about on Nylon Singapore.

Asked dearest Gina to accompany me and for some reason, I jio-ed B as well. For some reason, B jio-ed R. For some reason, Gina had to pangseh me on that day. And so, I thought the 4 of us might as well meet up in the day.

Went to L'etoile Cafe~











Sorry for the overkilled filters HAHAHA. Didn't order any food because I had my lunch at home. On the other hand the rest were famished :o Here's what we ordered at the cafe~ No more filters cause, its just, food...okay, and because I cannot be bothered to.

Cappuccino which I ordered and it tastes delicious!

B's something something chicken. Didn't get to eat it cause that bitch never offer me. Oh god why didn't he.



R's something something something chicken. This other bitch didn't offer me as well.



O's Beef Sandwich which I had a couple of bites! Koped some of the fries as well. Damn goooooood.

Matcha azuki cake which everyone shared :)

The rest spent the next few hours nua-ing in the cafe because we've got sofa seats while I figure out how to freaking do my applications on my netbook. R even brought his laptop to game and everyone's like, excuse me, we're in cafe with such a lovely ambience and you're gaming there? Oh well, but the atmosphere in the cafe was too nice for us to even be mad at someone else.

After I successfully submitted my uni application, we decided to do some camwhoring on R's laptop and B's S3 because we just needed something to do to kill some time.









And here's O posing with a teapot because she thought it was cute. (Which reminds me of Beauty and the Beast T.T SORRY STILL SUFFERING FROM DISNEY ON ICE WITHDRAWALS!!!)













And here's a group photo taken by a very nice waitress who served our table for the whole afternoon.

Travelled all the way down to Sentosa in the evening. Being extremely cheapo, we decided to walk there.



So my advice is, don't ever try to go to Queyside Isle without a car because you basically need to change your mode of transport like twice, for us thrice, because there's no direct way to go there. We took an hour from Sentosa entrance to reach there? And did I mention it was freaking hot and humid that day we almost went crazy.

Anyways, reached Queyside Isle and settled in one of the restaurants there, Picotin Express . All the restaurants there like super high class, damn stress. The restaurant we went to is the, less high class already, but still high class okay you get what I mean. Ordered some food which reminded me so much of Italy T.T. Had a great time there just chilling and looking at the full view of private yachts which I probably can never afford (unless I become a tai tai). But anyway I can never understand why would people buy yachts. I mean, I don't wanna understand either.

Meanwhile, pictures (again ._.)





And obviously, some camwhoring shots on B's S3 (again ._.)

Risotto + Pasta + Pizzas totally scream ITALY to me.

Ordered this Apple Crumble with rum ice cream for dessert omg yum yum yum!!!

Group photo taken outside the restaurant we dined in. Yup yup the yachts.

So we were supposed to wait for this Sentosa bus to take us back to this Sentosa train station but we found this random bus which directly takes us to Harbourfront so off we go and reached main land Singapore in like 10 minutes ._.









Took the MRT home. O was super tired and slept on the train while we take one last photo. And then we say goodnight. It was a fun day.

 

Change

Exactly how much of our very own self should we retain?

Recently, a friend of mine made a huge revelation to me. I was shocked. I was angry. I felt betrayed. I felt helpless. If a part of you is causing trouble and is burdening others, would you try to change yourself? I used to tell myself that no matter what happens, do not change yourself for the sake of others. Stay true to yourself. Do what you like. Smile whenever you're feeling happy. Frown whenever you're feeling sad or angry. But now I'm not even sure if this is still the right way to live my life.

Now, I try to control myself and to not go back to who I used to be. The part which people have tolerated for so long. The part of me which is evil, selfish, jealous, arrogant, emotional, anxious... But at the same time, I will miss you.















I really don't want to, but I have to.

Results day

Some of you may or may not be curious about my As results. But I'm assuming some of you guys are, judging from the alarmingly large amount of blog views on results day. Stalkers.

When I was doing my As, I roughly had an idea of what kind of grades I'm going to get. I told myself not to expect too much. I kept my standards low. I only hoped that my grades can get me a place in a local university. I don't ask for a lot, really.

Even so, on results day, I was nervous. I was anxious. I was lost. What am I gonna do if I screw up my As? Okay, retake as a private candidate? Nah, I can't bare to go through As all over again. Go to a private U? My parents can't afford the tuition fees. I do know that there are many alternative paths/routes I can take, but I'd prefer the conventional one. I ranted to my colleagues everyday about results day and how much I dread it. I'm sure they were pretty much annoyed by me. Occasionally I have the doctors at my clinic advising me to take up popular and competitive courses such as dentistry (surprise!!), accountancy blah blah. I can only say "Thanks 你很看得起我"

I do want my parents to be proud of their own daughter. They could have gone to their workplace and show off her excellent results to their colleagues. But sometimes, there's a limit to what one can achieve. I have never achieved excellent results. I was never super smart. All along, I did average. I went to a neighbourhood primary school. Got a pretty decent PSLE score. Went to a neighbourhood secondary school. Got a pretty decent L1R5. Went to a neighbourhood junior college...



On results day, met up with my JC clique. Had lunch at pastamania. Tried to chill and act as if we aren't really bothered by what was gonna happen in probably 1 hours time. Went to school and squeezed in the hall. I swear the aircon wasn't even on and I almost wanted to faint due to heatstroke because there were like ~1.6k people in the hall.

As usual, Mr Kwek was giving his speech and I randomly whatsapped Gina and asked if she has gotten her results already. BAM! She took a photo of her results slip and I swear I almost screamed. Controlled myself because of the extremely tense atmosphere in the hall and screaming would be the most inappropriate thing to do at that moment. She did very well, in case you guys are still wondering. And there goes, the honour roll. Firstly, I want to say, good job to those who went up on stage. The few from 1110, damn proud. Especially dearest Danial!! Congratulations! Was truly very happy for my friends who did well :')




Photo taken after Danial came back from stage and before we proceed to the atrium to collect our results.

When we were queuing up to collect our results, the nervousness was totally gone. I was super calm. Held Joey and Rachel hands. We were deciding on who to go first and I calmly volunteered myself. I remember thinking to myself "Just get it done and over with!" Went up to Mr Toh and I told him "Mr Toh, I'm very calm now." He took my results slip, browsed through, and only commented on my Math grade. I mean, well, he was our math tutor so...

Took no time and immediately looked at my results slip. I wouldn't say I was happy. I wouldn't say I was sad. Because the moment I looked at my results, my first reaction was more of like, er, okay, so...is this good or bad? I couldn't even judge for myself. The next moment I saw Rachel crying and for the next 10 minutes we were all trying to get her to stop crying. Then I realised she was crying because she did so much better than what she expected, that bastard. Took another second to look at my grades. Oh well, I screwed up econs and  gp. Oh hey my chemistry! Then the rest were like, okay can. Went to look for Ms Lee and thanked her, sincerely. Really grateful :')


So...I scored decent grades. (surprise?)

Popular courses are obviously out for me. I'm still looking at the various courses. I'm so stressed out recently. What makes you think that I can make a decision within a month when I've already spent my entire life figuring out what I really want in life but to no avail?

I wish I had figured out what I really want to study in Uni, way before I did my As. It could have been my motivation. Oh well, but whats the use of saying all these now. Went to SMU and NTU's open house. I swear I'm seriously a super indecisive person when it comes to things like these. I feel like I'm getting brainwashed each weekend. How now brown cow?!